Reflecting

I've been watching the Wonder Years on DVD. It's a show about the pains of growing up and how things change. I don't think you can help but look back on your own childhood and experiences and think about how things have changed.

I will never say that I regret meeting Matt, and I won't say that I regret moving to Hawaii. Matt is one of the best things that could have happened for me. Moving to Hawaii, and my time here, has been an incredible experience that has made me grow a lot personally. I've matured even more than I could have thought. I've had to learn to rely on myself when Matt isn't around, something that I didn't think I could do. However, I wish that things didn't have to change the way that they have. I've changed some relationships that I was very happy with before. Tony and I still talk almost every day, and we are still the best of friends, but being so far apart has inevitably changed our friendship. My relationship with my brother has probably changed the most. I really wish that hadn't been the case. I miss being able to have him visit me on the weekends, and I am really missing seeing him grow up. I am sorry that I am not there to take him driving, to take him to see Star Wars, or just to hang out like we used to. I know that our relationship would have changed eventually anyway, but I feel like my moving away has rushed that process.

However, I do feel closer to my parents than I was before. Seeing the way that they have supported my decision to move here whole-heartedly really opened my eyes to what family is there for.

Don't mind me, I guess I'm just a little sentimental tonight. :)